Cookies

Me: "Hey buddy, what would you like for dinner?"

Chris: "Cookies!"

Me: "Cookies huh? I don't think that is a good idea. What would you like for dinner?"

Chris: "Cookies Momma!"

Me: "You can have cookies AFTER you eat your dinner. How about a sandwich?"

Chris: "No shanwish Momma, Cookies!"

Me: "If you eat ALL your sandwich, you can have a cookie."

Chris: "I want cookies, cookies and cookies...pahleezzzz."

He finally got that cookie...AFTER he had his sandwich!!

Guilt

I have days where I feel like I am a fantastic Mom. I also have days, where I feel like I could be doing so much better. This is normal right?? To question one's parenting skills?? I don't know...I just look at my children and I often wonder if I am teaching them as much as they are teaching me. Could I be doing more? I feel horrible when I lose my patience, raise my voice, or want to spend 15 minutes to myself. I know they will not stay this young forever and that really gets me. I love watching them grow, learn, and change with each passing day, but I am so scared for the days that they want nothing to do with me. I know I have a while before that happens, but I can't help but think about it. I am trying so hard to cherish every moment I have with them, but I sometimes feel it just isn't enough. That I should be spending every minute of every day with them. I feel guilty when I sit at my computer and watch a show or surf the Internet. I mean, those are minutes I could be spending with them. I know it sounds a little crazy, but it's how I feel. Especially in this moment.